All is right again Chewy Chocolate Gingerbread Cookies

So, from my last post, here are some ways i coped with the loneliness:
-tried to plan activities that involved interacting with other people almost every night
-tried to take up knitting again while falling asleep to "Phantom of the Opera"
-borrowed my neighbors doggy in the evenings for company

Segue:
My neighbors are awesome! I had an amazing dinner with them on Monday to take my mind off of worries. They are slightly older than me and husband and they have a 7 mo old adorable cutie. They are essentially examples of the people husband and I hope to be in a few yrs or so. It's really fun seeing a peer-ish couple doing the kid thing and still being cool, fun, interesting and not all consumed by child. They are v. loving toward the babe by the way. She's going to grow up great. I think you can tell a lot about a family by how the baby takes in the world. Neighbor baby (we will call her N) is a v. well adjusted, easily amused, calm baby. I want one just like her!
Anyways, the new neighbors like to cook and bake, and that was actually our first intro to them. The age old "Hi new neighbors! We baked some goods for you to welcome you to the neighborhood!" V (wife type neighbor) baked some amazing ginger cookies with large chunks of melt in your mouth chocolate and cocoa flavor all around. They were delicious! So, I borrowed her recipe, made it, and loved the cookies again. I do not know who the originator of the recipe is or I would give them mad props. Also, I plan on baking a ton of these and giving them in little baggies to all non-family for Christmas due to budget-induced-tight-walletedness.
A must post recipe:

Chewy Chocolate Gingerbread Cookies
(Makes about 20 cookies)

-7 oz high quality semisweet chocolate chopped up (I used 3/4 of a 12oz bag of Ghiradelli choco chips)
- 1.5 cups + 1 tbsp flour
-1.25 tsp ground ginger
-1 tsp ground cinnamon
-1/4 tsp ground cloves
-1/4 tsp ground nutmeg
-1 tbsp cocoa powder

Chop chocolate in 1/4" chunks. Combine dry ingredients listed above. Set aside.

8 tbsp (1 stick) unsalted butter (room temp)
1 tbsp ginger
1/2 cup dark brown suger
1/2 cup unsulfured molasses
1 tsp baking soda
1/4 cup granulated sugar

Beat ginger and butter in electric mixer with paddle attahcment until fluffy (about 4 min). Add brown sugar until combined. Add molasses until combined.

Dissolves baking soda in 1.5 tsp boiling water (I know this is a ridiculously small amount of water to boil, but I guess this step is important. So boil a few cups of water and then use only 1.5 tsp). Beat half of the flour mixture into the butter mixture. Beat in baking soda mixture. Beat in rest of flour mixture. Add chocolate and mix. Wrap up the complete cookie batter into plastic wrap. Refrigerate.

This is the part that is up to your discretion; Refrigeration.
The key to chewy cookies is refrigeration time. If you want denser, flatter, heavy, chewy cookies refrigerate these babies for ~2hrs. If you want really fluffy cookies do not refrigerate at all. My preferred time frame for chewy, slightly dense, yet light cookies is 1hr.

Preheat oven to 325 degrees.

Roll cookies into into 1" balls and roll in granulated sugar (this gives them that pretty sugar plum christmas look!). Place on non-stick cookie sheet and bake for about 10 minutes. The cookies will look plump and raised with a couple of cracks in them. Be careful! 2 minutes too late for these cookies can make them v. crunchy and not as yummy.

Let cool until you can bear to pick up the hot aromatic melted chocolate goodness and stuff your face!

Love.

Day 1

I don't know what to title this yet. I idolize my husband. So much of my happiness is dependent on him. Some ways you know if you idolize someone/something;
1. You get angry (to the point of doing things you regret, or not characteristic for you to do) when something gets between you and your idol
2. You are really sad (depressed; you have trouble getting out of bed and have no motivation to do anything) when you don't have your idol.

I wish I didn't in some ways. But I don't know how to stop. He is gone for 6 days this week because of a business trip. He left this morning. The past two days were rough. I tried to be strong and not let it bother me, but I know I know I miss him more than he misses me and all I do is waste time/wait until he gets back. He laid with me while I essentially cried myself to sleep the last two nights.
Why am I like this? I used to be SO independent. The last two years of our relationship were long distance. The first year was fun and not too hard. The second year we missed each other a lot, but it was definitely doable. But now I am this puddle of a mess. I have to remember how it is I survived 23 years of life before this without falling asleep next to someone or having someone to come home to/with. What did I do all of that time??? How did I have any motivation?
We have been praying a lot about me putting my attention and investing my energy on God rather than him. It's a lot of pressure for him too you know. I hold him to a standard he can never live up to, no matter how much he wants to. He can never make me happy all the time, or be there everyday, or meet all of my needs at once. No one can, except God.
I have a lot of trouble with that though.

We spent our last day together cooking and baking. It's our past time. He made Beet Soup, and Potato Leek Soup. I made Cinnamon Rolls and Pumpkin/Harvest Bread. Everything turned out great. I don't really feel like typing out some quirky version of these recipes, so here ya go;

Pumpkin/Harvest Bread

Cinnamon Rolls